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ANOTHER WEEK HAS PASSED AND SUNDAY'S HERE AGAIN! DREADING THE WEEK AHEAD COS THERE'S SO MUCH TO COMPLETE YET SO LITTLE TIME. HOWEVER I'VE BEEN RELYING ON HIS STRENGTH TO GET BY EACH DAY AND HE HAS BEEN FAITHFUL. CROSSING MY FINGERS AND PRAYING HARD THAT I'LL SURVIVE TILL MARCH WHEN I MEET MY "GIANTS" FACE TO FACE.

TODAY'S JAMMING WAS FRUITFUL. HAVEN'T ATTENDED IN A LONG WHILE. WAS GLAD THAT I CHOSE TO GO COS' GOD'S DIVINE PRESENCE WAS THERE. DID SOMETHING TO HURT HIM EARLIER THAT DAY. THE GUILT JUST CONSUMED ME FOR A MOMENT WHILE I WAS WORSHIPING. BUT I ASKED FOR FORGIVENESS AND AM SLOWLY TRYING TO FORGIVE MYSELF. FELT SO HORRIBLE ABOUT MYSELF. BUT I KNOW HE'S MERCIFUL AND WILL FORGIVE. BUT HUMAN NATURE ALWAYS CAUSES US TO EXPLOIT THAT FORGIVING AND GRACIOUS NATURE OF GOD. WE TRANSGRESS AGAINST HIM TIME AND AGAIN, IN THE FULL KNOWLEDGE THAT HE WILL FORGIVE US NO MATTER HOW WRONG IT IS.

TOMORROW I'LL BE WORSHIP LEADING. ACTUALLY, IT'S TODAY COS IT'S PAST MIDNIGHT. BEEN SLEEPING LATE TRYING TO RUSH SOME WORK AT HOME. I'M PREPARED BUT NOT CONFIDENT IN MYSELF. I'LL HAVE TO PUT MY CONFIDENCE IN GOD TOMORROW. LOOKING FORWARD TO A WONDERFUL TIME OF WORSHIP AND ALSO A FUN-FILLED DAY AFTER THAT. SIGH...AND THEN IT'S BACK TO THE DRUDGERY OF MONDAY.